I thought it did but since I’v started eating and purging I feel even worse. I was actually getting kind of happy when I was starving myself and now I just feel like shit. Every time I eat, I’m further away from my goals. It kills me and yet my brain is so confussing.

It tells me to eat. So I eat and then I feel like shit and wonder why I just ate!!! 

Okay, Mia has come back to see my in full force. Broke my fast and have been bingeing and purging all day. Fuck. Anyways back to starving tomorrow. YAY. :D xxx

My throat is so sore and my stomach hurts. Mia hurts me more than ana. 

Complete.

When I am empty I am a success. 

When I have food inside me I am a failure.

YES I DO.